Just push the call button...

It's what the nurse tells me everytime i walk into the room i am sitting in for 8 straight hours.  i'm a patient sitter at the local hospital. My first 2 times were AWFULLLLL. I wanted to jump out the window. Since then (fingers crossed!!!) the patients i've been with were either; a.)sleeping, or b.) needing an escort to the bathroom...and then falling back asleep. Here's hoping for more of them!
Anyway...I just finished my overnight shift and i think for the first time in my life, actually started guzzling the coffee i picked up from Tim Horton's on my ride home.  Sitting for 8 hours offers a lot of time to think.  So I thought.  Every once in a while I'd see the call light flicker on for the room across the hall, and a couple times, a stampede of nurses booking it to a code blue.  And i was reminded of something that every nurse tells me as they walk me to the lucky room of the night.  They give me the low down on the patient, and then like clockwork they end their spiel by saying, "Just push the call button if you need anything."  They smile and turn away to walk out and i can only assume that the smile was not b/c they'd be more than happy to come running in at my beck and call, but more of a sigh of relief that says silently across their face, "Thank GOD it's not me sitting there for 8 hours."  As soon as they walk out, I silently and ever so carefully, turn my head to face the sleeping giant!! ....I mean patient.  I say a silent prayer of petition...begging, really, that the patient would sleep through the night. If not for their own sanity and health, but for mine as well.  =) 
During the commercial breaks from all the late night USA reruns, my eyes wander about the dimly lit room and take in all that there is to take in.  Namely, a huge dry erase board stating the date, the Nurse and the Nurse aid, phone numbers, pagers, beepers and various postings.  The biggest font shown on an 8x11 piece of paper that reads, "Our goal...to answer your call light in less than 3 minutes."  I think to myself everytime my eyes glance over it, "3 minutes isn't too long for a patient that is about to piss the bed...is it?" My prayer focus abruptly changes from, "Please stay asleep, Patient X" to "OMG, please hurry!" 

Just push the call button if you need anything.  It's rarely I that needs anything.  When i push that call button, it's usually for the patient.  I liken that to my everyday life at the moment.  My heart starts to race when i run my finger over the bright orange call light button on the patient's remote control.  Sometimes, I even put the controller back down, afraid of bothering the Nurse that ASSURES me to call if i need ANYTHING.  Even for myself...but i hesitate.  Why?  To avoid being a nuisance (sp?), to avoid being a bother.  I think i'd be more of a bother if I too wet myself b/c i waited too long.  Then the nurse would have 2 bed-wetters on her hands.  Sometimes, I'm afraid to push the call button for God.  I guess I forget that I don't even need to.  As my mind races to figure out whether or not my plea is relevant, He already knows my anxieties. 
"Forget the call button", He says, "I'm here all the time."